Sometimes I get mail from people writing:
"I also want the complete freedom, I do not want to feel the need for money and unnecessary things, and I don't want to feel compelled to follow in the footsteps of parents and friends, or what others expect from me. I long to be only me, free from all thing, but I do not know how to get there. It is difficult to break old patterns of fear of throwing me into the unknown and perhaps losing friends and family. But the desire for your life is so great, how do I get there?"
My lifestyle has been shaped by my upbringing. My childhood was violent and I was exposed to both physical and psychological abuse and I was locked in most of it, and I constantly yearned for freedom, and once I could escape, it became a life of prostitution, violent and crime. Now is that time over then many years, but the knowledge remains. I learned to live hidden, and not to blindly trust all people, I subconsciously learned to read body language and hidden signals, and to feel the atmosphere of a group of people.
After a long time in the military I get a good job where I travel all the time, and now as retired I can slow down and only enjoy the life.
My way of life is good for me, but that doesn't mean it's good for everyone.
But you can take part of my life and shape it after your own life, so it is not pointless to read and learn from others, I read about the lifestyles of others and sometimes I change myself from them, as everyone else does, but then you have to get the knowledge from others to grow into something of their own.
I do not want to be a citizen only in a small part of the world. I want open borders and be global citizens.
I have find my freedom, let me stay free in a boundless world.
Living is like ride a bike you have to be in motion to get the balance.
I live according to Buddhism, but not as religion, more like a lifestyle.
I have no definite point, I let the fate lead me and go there where it
feels good at the moment. So I live everywhere and nowhere.
I live only today, not in the past and not in the future, because you can not change the past so it's unnecessary to waste energy on it. And the future, you know nothing about, so it's futile to plan. Everything is changing constantly and nothing will be as planned. Strictly following a plan for the future makes you forget to live today and when your plan is realized you have lost time and you have changed so what you wanted when you set your plan at work that you experience as outdated ideas when you reach the goal.
I eat when I'm hungry, drink when I'm thirsty, sleep when I get tired, work when I need money etc. I don't care that things have to happen at special times, I never stress, everything must take the time it needs . I don't like routines or traditions because they control my life. I never decide an exact time for a meeting, I come when I come and if you can't wait so it's up to you.
I'm thinking never what might happen if I choose a direction to go, I just go so be it as it gets. Sometimes people ask why I chose a special place, but since I never chose, but just ended up where it is impossible to answer. But it also makes life more interesting to suddenly find themselves in a place that you never knew existed, just because you suddenly chose another direction at any crossing.
I have no close friends, but many superficial, but I don't need friends, my best friend is myself. Sometimes I meet others with a similar lifestyles, often young people, but also older and sometimes even families where the children go to school at a distance and get a wonderful childhood.
I own nothing but the most important thing, and what I can carry with me, and everything I own has an important function. The number of my things is constant, because they have to fit in my small backpack, sometimes i change something, but then I past away some old thing, I do not want to own more than I need. Why I have a small backpack now is because I bought a computer that I need to bring with me. Before I had no bag at all, only wallet and passport in my pocket.
Sometimes, I rent a room for few month and have that as a base. I prefer to rent a furnished room, but they are more expensive than unfurnished, sometimes it may be worthwhile to rent unfurnished and buy some used furniture that can be thrown away when I move on. I'm looking for the cheapest accommodation and other things I can find. I have a postbox as post-address because I need get post from my home countrys authorities (because they don't want send some documents on e-mail,) in order to receive a pension, if I were not dependent on the pension, I would not have needed an address at all. The postbox company scans in my mail and sends to me by encrypted email, then I get my post wherever I am.
I do not need luxury, and I have no need to do other jealousy. And what's really luxury? If you are rich and can buy what you want, a small hut in the forest can be pure luxury. If people do not like how I live or if my clothes don't have a special brand, they are free to look at something else. And I do not want friends who make demands.
If I stay longer time in same country, I can buy a motorcycle, when I move to another country I take it with me if I can, or sell it.
I do not buy souvenirs or take photographs, for I feel that if I can't remember without looking at a photo or a thing so there is nothing to remember. Also, I don't want to lug around unnecessary gadgets, and to view other is pointless because they can never have the experience of seeing other people's photos, they must experience themselves.
If I have a problem so I'm not upset, I'm looking for a solution to the problem instead. For me, there are no problems, only challenges.
I have always work with what's available where I am, if I need money, but never more than I'm just surviving. Now I get pension, so I have more freedom than ever.
I have lived almost all my life this way, and now I'm old but have no plans for permanent residence. I have tried, but realized that this is my way of living to feel the best and the most freedom.
I do not like money, for they create greed, and I don't like it at all. Whether you have too little or too much money, they create problems. And when it comes to money, there is no middle level.
Sometimes I have been very rich but lost everything in a few seconds because I chose wrong, and sometimes I have been very poor but have won big sums because I chose right. But it's part of the life and just taking on as an experience.
Money is, however, only paper pieces and metal tiles someone gave a value.
But the kilo price on the material is not worth much. Experiences are the most important and expensive ones, and if you never lose, you never get any experiences.
I myself use a total of about $300 per month, but often less, rarely more. For that I have all the visas I need, a good home and a motorbike, I eat all the food in the restaurant and I party a bit too much. I buy clothes sometimes and tanks and service the motorcycle. Most people I know say that it's not possible to live at $300 per month including everything. But of course it goes, it depends entirely on how you live and what you prioritize. Often I don't use more then $200 per month. There are always choices and why choose the expensive option if you can find a cheaper.
I do not want to get rich, I value freedom more than money and unnecessary ownership, and you can never get both. Wealth can only create a falsehood. I feel comfortable with a simple life and feel better with the poor than the rich. The foundation of all the evils in the world is greed for money.
All forms of abuse, regardless of drugs, gender, relationships, ownership etc. always require your first-hand attention. As long as you agree to be addicted to something, you will never be completely free.
The Internet has simplified my lifestyle, previously it was harder with banking
and authority contacts and other information. Now it's easier, but I'm using the
internet very sparingly and I always hide my internet usage carefully, the
internet wants to keep track of my position and I do not want to share it.
If I use social media so it is only for a short time and for a particular purpose.
I do not like Facebook, Google or other community who live on to control
Sometimes people tell me they are not criminals so they do not have to protect themselves. I answer that if you do not protect yourself, someone who are criminals can steal your life and you will also become criminal without knowing it. Only when the police knock on the door will you be aware that someone used your personal data to blame you instead of on their own. And to explain it to the judiciary is in principle impossible.
Authorities want control of your life, so integrity is important. I do not want to be contactable all the time. Authorities require logical perception and consider you to be criminal if you protect your privacy and live an illogical life for them. But when you always live spontaneously right now, life makes it illogical. But a lie is created by planning and will therefore be logical and likely. Therefore, the legal system does not work.
Those who decide your destiny are people like yourself, but who read some books more than you and are therefore considered to have the right to decide your destiny. And the laws they refer to are often obsolete and illogical in themselves. If the laws are to be taken seriously, they need to be updated and renewed every year so that they follow on time.
The world would work better without all these laws and control needs. I only follow one law/rules which houses all other laws around the world. Imagine a little extra on this line of text, and you will soon see that it includes everything in all other laws in all countries on earth. If you think I'm wrong, feel free to discuss this with me, too send a email.
Never, in any way harm any other living or dead existence on Earth.
I have never understood why people follow mad leaders, a leader is never stronger than the people who follow him.
People prefer to live in misery and confine themselves to lamenting themselves quietly while they are slowly dying of starvation, rather than dying in a struggle for freedom, I feel that this type of people has no right to complain.
Do you feel like me, that you are lost in this world?
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